I wish that I
could
still write creatively, but
I
was forced to write
everything
in a rote, required
format
created by the state
for
so many years, that
I
forgot what it meant
to
be creative with words,
break
out of ordinary structures,
imagine
what prose can become,
see
how shapes can be
formed;
instead, I just write
essays
and other standard assignments
but
I wish many times
that
I could still do
creative
writing.